I'm up all night, exhausted beyond reason, and have very few people to connect with at the moment. This is nine shades of suck.

Lie to me, I promise I'll believe.

Lie to me, but please don't leave...

I would've rather had you stick around under false pretenses than cut me out of your life like the fool you are. Now I'm angry and bitter. I wish you hadn't shown your face again. With you gone, I was willing to sweep it all under the rug and leave it there for good. But no, I can't do that. I'm a nice person. Too nice. My infinite fucking patience is wearing thin, because I lied to you. I lied to you the very last time we actually spoke. You did hurt me, but it's my own fault. I let you.

And I know he's never going to read this. I know I'm probably never going to get to say any of this to him. Just getting it out helps,though..

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda, don't stop
Keep that chin up, you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been?
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your my name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face